the colours of my life

It's been months? Lama gila rasa tak tulis blog, dulu konon azam nak start writing. Konon la, konon. So here I am, just graduated, just attended the convocation ceremony, adapting to a new place, soon to have my little family, my little bean insyaAllah will pop out this April and..... unemployed. The last one, hmmmm.... My very first intention when I get back from India is to stay and be there for my husband. Sebab dia baru start HO (housemanship), sebab life HO hectic, sebab boleh support suami, sediakan makan minum baju, sebab lepastu boleh bodek shopping. Eh I thought being a housewife was an easy job. Duduk kat rumah je la tak payah kluar, kemas rumah, basuh baju, masak, cuci ni cuci tu. But I was totally WRONG! Jadi housewife BORING! You do the same house chores everyday. Cuma bezanya lauk tiap-tiap hari je kena fikir sikit. Few times I told myself, 'I'd never be a housewife', and I wonder macam mana housewives lain boleh survive. Til that one point, it is q...

I really want to write about this one topic that I don't even know what the title should be named at the first place and I dont event know how to start but I really need to write.  Dalam movies, selalu kita tengok 'snap' scene (at least I call it as snap scene). Lebih kurang macam the turning point untuk watak utama tu nampak jelas apa yang dia tak nampak selama ni. Contohnya, dia rasa kawan tu baik dengan dia, but 'snap'! rupanya tikam dari belakang.  It doesn't happen to everyone. Tapi untuk yang rasa, it is indeed a phase of growing up. Let me tell you something I have bad skill of judgement.  The one who I thought was true love turned out he wasn't for me, (but alhamdulillah I met Choi) The one I thought was a true friend turned out.....hmm is still a nice friend but not for me. That ' turned out' part is what I called as snap scene.  Every life event has its own impact in your life, Either you choose to be brave and face ...

So hi? Hmm..probably no one will be reading this. It's been 3 years since my last post when I decided to stay silent. Well, here I am again, almost a doctor and has changed status from single to married (yeay!) happily being Choi's lady. There is one month left before PRO exam, our final exam as medical student.  6 years guys, 6 years! Orang kahwin pun dah boleh dapat anak dua orang. Sementara semua orang tengah berhempas pulas nak final exam, I got admitted into the ward due to acute gastritis. Orang melayu panggil 'gastrik'. I refused to get admitted but man, that 2 injections of Pethidine (painkiller) did not work on me. Tersadai la aku kat ward 3 hari. Total disconnected from the world when I supposed to be on Emergency posting. Time passed, 3 hari tak buat tutorial 3 hari tak datang clinical 3 hari tak buat study group 3 hari tak study. Gila Dunia yang semua benda nak kena rushing stop kejap. I felt sad though, sebab 'kena-admit-hospital' tak...