the colours of my life

Finally, baru tulis new post.. Salam~ Nak tulis pasal adik, tapi tak tertulis-tulis. CONGRATULATIONS TO MY SISTER!! Selamat menempuhi fasa baru di Food Institute of Malaysia. Balik rumah nanti sila kebaboomm kan dapur rumah, masak sedap-sedap, kakak order je eh. Oh, she's been cooking since sek. rendah, siap ade buku resepi sendiri, haaa~ sekarang ko masak la puas-puas sepanjang hidup. Ayat pertama yang keluar dari mulut bila dia cakap akan melanjutkan pelajaran, 'Alaaa, angah. Nanti siapa nak masak?', sebab muka aku memang muka blacklist dalam dapur. Bila teman angah daftar, terfikir. Ya Allah, sedapnya belajar dikelilingi makanan. Uniform pun lawa. Dapat penasihat Masterchef plak tu. Belajar masak ketung ketang ketung ketang, lebih makanan, bawak balik. The End. Masuk topik baru.                                   **************************************** Result dah keluar.Unfortunately, ke...

that moment when you got that look. yup! that look. you know you were judged. you know there is something that people don't like in you. may be my refusal or  in any particular thing? I don't know. could be my personal life? i don't know. Really. May be because i troublesome other people. I don't know. But among of those reasons. there must be something. or may be one of them is true. senyap. senyap. that's the key. and doa. doa dalam hati. try to do your best. your best that could please other people. well, may be that could be counted as an effort. I am surrounded by people struggling to be a better person. Well, that's what people do. That is a part of life.  Sometimes, I choose to observe people, -action-, asking for opinions,  listen to what they say -words-. sometimes I eavesdropping. Ops. This is the truth, of which few people would argue or deny. Dah buat kajian. dapat lah hasilnya. Contradict to what our Prophet told us to do. Why are you ...

Salam pasca-pathology. Tak 100% pasca sebab ada oral, tapi boleh la. Exam on, kelas piano pun off. Bukan setakat kelas piano, exam Trinity aku pun off, patutnya hujung bulan ni dah boleh ambik. Theory dah prepare Practical dah practise For the supporting tests, my piano teacher said i can take sight reading, sebab aku cepat catch up new music notes. Aku cuma ikut apa yang dia recommend je, sebab aku sendiri pun tak nampak aku cepat catch up. Semuanya off bermula dari 1) cikgu piano terlibat dalam International Jazz Festival 2) orang yang uruskan kelas piano tu sekarang kat UK. 3) tight schedule. Ni la problem nya kalau cikgu piano, golongan professional. anak murid, medical student. 3) final exam. final exam. final exam. Second thing, tak dapat buat umrah sebab............... . . . . . Takde mahram. Sorang mahram (ayah) kat Malaysia yang sekarang outstation bagai. sorang lagi (ehem) tak muncul-muncul lagi. Kenapa mesti tahun ni nak buat peraturan baru waha...

salam blackout. LOL! No no. this post tak berkaitan dengan politik. cuma nak quote dari buku Yasmin Mogahed because I once mentioned this during SC a.k.a usrah. 'As I got older, any fall-out with a friend shattered me, I couldn't let go of something. People, places, events, moments--even outcomes became objects of strong attachment. If things didn't work out the way i wanted or imagined they should, I was devastated. And disappoinment for me wasn't an ordinary emotion. It was catastrophic. Once let down, I never fully recovered. I could never forget, and the break never mended. Like a glass vase that you place on the edge of a table, once broken, the pieces never quite fit again. 'However the problem wasn't with the vase, or even the vase kept breaking. The problem was that I kept putting them on the edge of tables' Kalau timbul soalan, siapa tempat kita luah masalah, yang selalu support kita? Parents? Best friend? Now imagine, those people takde at...

People are often unreasonable, Illogical and self-centered, Forgive them anyway. If you are kind, People may accuse you, Of selfish, ulterior motives, Be kind anyway. If you are successful, You will win some false friends, and Some true enemies, Success anyway. If you are honest and frank People may cheat you, Be honest and frank anyway. What you spend years building, Someone could destroy overnight, Build anyway. If you find serenity and happiness, They may be jealous Be happy anyway. Give the world the best you have, And it may never be enough Give the world the best, You've got anyway. You see, in the final analysis, It is between you and God It is never between you and them anyway. credits to dinding bilik Tasneem.

When things go wrong,     as they sometimes will, when the roads you're trudging    seems all uphill when the funds are low    and the debts are high.. and you want to smile,    but you have to sigh when care is pressing you down a bit,    rest if you must but DON'T YOU QUIT! Success is failure turned inside out   that silver tint is the clouds of doubts and you can never tell how close you are   it might be near when it seems afar so STICK TO THE FIGHT...     when you're hardest hit it's when things seems worst THAT YOU MUST NOT QUIT!!! Often the strugglers has given up when he might have captured the victors cup! so DON'T GIVE UP! Bila ada masalah berat, dasyat, rumit, annoying, kita pilih untuk berkabung duduk dalam bilik memandang luar tingkap sambil ade lagu latar belakang macam dalam movie. Kita ingatkan kita akan ok lepastu, ye la dalam movie Tangled ade laki h...

Salam terutama kepada pengkritik tetap tulisan aku, muna & shidot. Suatu hari, Muna jeling tajam semasa aku tengah tulis nota. Lecturer kat depan, aku teruskan menulis, buat-buat khusyuk sebab boleh agak Muna nak cakap apa. Akhirnya dia bersuara......-kan aku dah cakap-. Muna: Ana belajar tulisan sanskrit kat mana? Rasa nak terjelopok jatuh tergolek biler dengar. Fine muna fine! Me: Ada la belajar kat kuil mane ntah aritu, nak kite ajarkan ke? Boleh je. Muna: Takpe la ana, takut tak bersambung sanad nanti. Tiba giliran shidot, Shidot: Ana, ni kalau Dr panggil ko semula, sebab tulisan ko buruk sangat ko nak jawab ape? Aku rasa aku nak jawab, 'Doctor, I don't have bad handwriting, I have my own Font' That's how I define self-confidence.